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10/11/2022
💞💞 oh my goodness! well hello i have not written anything in some time. Tomorrow i am getting new glasses, or atleast the exam thingy for them! My current glasses have split all the way down the center so, i cant really see and its really annoying. I also will be going back to therapy for the first time in 2 or 3 years in around 2 weeks! which is a very big deal!
As far as objectum things, iv been spending alot of my time recently looking at vintage calculators and recently found out by accident that i very very like them so much. Not every calculator makes me blushy though, its mostly the old ones and aesthetically i suppose the more square and large/chunky they are shaped the more i have big emotions and feelings about them, they make me so flowery when i look at them, i like to browse ebay sometimes to see them but then i get all flustered and have to stop
I wonder what my therapist will say about me being objectum, he might think im out of my mind or something. I would believe i was out of my mind or something if my feelings for objects started abruptly, but as mentioned i was born like this pretty much so, its like naturally occuring freakishness, organic weirdo-core
I have been thinking alot about how my sexuality is inherently different than other peoples this year, like aside from objectum stuff but its kinda inclusive of it. I just dont find most people attractive, i dont have the capability usually of seeing anyone as attractive because to me its just knowledge i can go, yeah this person would be conventionally attractive, but they arent really blushy attractive to me? sometimes people are but its really rare. I do think people are attractive its just that i think people are attractive as an extension of how much i love them, if i really love someone the more i love them the more i am attracted to them like on a personal feeling it sort of level. I could therefor never think anyone was hot, i dont even really like fictional characters much either except ones i really like and in that case i get super blushy obsessive about some characters in a ficto crushing on them brain relationship way. I think the biggest stigma about objectum sexuality is people assume they "cant have sex with real people so they have to have sex with objects" and i think debunking that is really important, because comments like that are a way to fetishize and dismiss it as a real psychological experience. Objects are always nherently more attractive to me than people are, i can be attracted to an object by how it looks but im never really attracted to how people look, i just recognize that they are supposed to be attractive to me, so yeah that is more objectum lore i guess
also yeah i made this gifs...wahoo!
Today i will be talking about 
are very common but simply not taken seriously by those around said person, as it isnt seen as anything in particular without the person labeling itself. Its very normal to love concepts and colors and objects, jokes about people being in love with their cars and people naming and gendering and falling in love with their cars has existed as normal and typical behavior since cars were literially invented.
A guy saying he is in love with his car is normal but it becomes weird if they say things romantically reserved for human interactions like kissing or dates or etc. I think its mostly a weird societal issue, i dont blame people for it really, when something is non typical of the majority of persons it becomes a deviation, and deviation from the norm inherently frightens and scares people and then they react negatively to it, which is sadly part of human nature and could be better explained if you looked into sociology shtuffs.
